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Hello! Tagal na rin bago ako nakapag-post dito sa blog ko. Haha. Dami na ring nangyari e, pero ngaun was one of the best and maybe the worst, (kung wala ng mas lalala). Nafeature kasi kami sa GKNB, congrats kay Jomhel, galing mo pare! Haha. Pero hindi iyon ung focus nitong post ko. It's about being a man, an ideal man. Straight to the point na, nag-cool off kami ng GF ko na si Kenj, at eawn ko kung saan hahantong ito, ewan ko lang kung saan mapupunta to. Kasi dati naman nagkakatampuhan kami at tapos "magbebreak" pero bukas o mamaya "kami" na ulit, parang tampuhan lang, pero this time, it's an effing serious matter. The reason we cooled off? Porn. Yeah, may nkita kasi siyang pictures sa iPod ko, at iyon na-disappoint siya as a my girlfriend and as a woman, I upset her religion and beliefs, Damn, di ko alam na ganoon pala. Becoming a real man need not to have this pictures or videos around you and then you'll shout lalaking lalaki ako. I learned now that the more important thing on becoming a real man is how you respect other people, their beliefs and trust for you. I believe this is the best way I could renounce myself of what I have done. Emo, stupid or corny, whatever other people say I'll still write this shit off just to tell you what I feel and to show that I'm really sorry for what I've done. I know it's stupid, it's a hell whole of stupidity that I have here. Sorry tol, mahal na mahal kita. Sana mapatawad mo ako. I felt insensitive and stupid, yes I admit that I'm wrong, I guess it's just the correct decision, just to teach me a lesson. I should not have done it. Sorry. I guess for some that seeing something like those is not a big deal, but the big deal here is that I hurt a person and made her disappointed because of those. Stupid, that's the perfect word for me. Stupid Idiotic Moronic Kevin. As for the next thing after this? I don't know, but one thing's is for sure, Kenji, if you're reading this, you are still here in my heart, your the reason why it still beats, I'll treasure you even for the darkest hours. My love for you is real, even if we fight because of our clashing egos, it's allright. Mahal KITA! KITA means YOU...Kenji I Love You!